|Well I am almost 16 weeks and feeling veeeerry hormonal. And by hormonal I mean moody, bitchy, lonely and generally sad. I am crying for no reason (well usually something sets me off and I can't stop and seem to keep going for no apparent reason). My normally level-headed logic seems to have flown off somewhere and I've become this irrational, can't string sentences together properly, crazy woman. Poor Matt has just had to bear the brunt of one such "episode". I am so awful to be around right now, even I wouldn't want to be around me.|
On the positive side it seems my morning sickness is starting to slowly ease up. The vomiting has spaced out to about once a week now but I am still battling nausea daily. Though that too seems to be easing in severity. Fingers crossed it is all gone soon and my craziness seems to level out.
Anyway,Ned is running amok so must stop him from doing something that may cause himself injury.
|Kira Blogged at 1:32 pm on Thursday, February 28, 2008|
|As promised here are the ultrasound pics. It was amazing to see how much bub had grown in just 2 weeks and bub was VERY wriggly at the 12 week scan.|
|Kira Blogged at 3:31 pm on Monday, February 11, 2008|
|I have been having some very weird dreams of late, as you do in pregnancy. Last night I had a nightmare and the scariest part of it (it was the end part of a long sequence of dreams, most of which I can't remember) was as follows:|
I and two other people (figments of my imagnation, not real people, and I couldn't really see their faces) were running through parkland in the dark trying to escape from something (I don't know what). I was scared. I had a backpack on. We came across an empty electronics bunker which we decided to try and hide in. When we went inside and turned on the light we realised there were lots of different types of huge spiders crawling all over the walls and roof. Some jumped on us and they were also in my backpack which I got rid of. We screamed, flicked any that were on us off, and ran back outside. When I turned around to look at the bunker, a 12 month old Ned was just inside the door screaming with tears pouring down his face and arms upstretched as if to say "pick me up". I could hear another baby inside also screaming but couldn't see it. I started to head back to the bunker to save them but one of my companions stopped me and the other shut the door and locked it with a key. They were trying to tell me it was a trick by whoever was chasing us in order to get me to go back inside. I was trying desperately to get to the door and to convince the people I was with to let me help the babies but they were stopping me from getting to the door.
It was at this point I woke up very distressed. After calming down I decided to think about how this related to my life. At the beginning of the dream I was already scared of something. Spiders are my biggest fear. My heart breaks whenever Ned cries and my first instinvct is always to comfort him so this caused a feeling of anguish when I wasn't able to. The baby I could hear crying but couldn't see I think could be this baby in my belly, since I don't know what it will look like yet. So I think that this dream relates to my fear of anything bad happening to myself or my children; particulalry when I am trying desperately to help keep them safe but not being able to, even if I myself am in danger. At the same time it may be possibly relate to me using and trusting my own judgement when it comes to my babies and not listening to others advice; i.e. I am questioning my own judgement but at the same time wary of the advise of others when I think my babies may be put at harm? This is not based on "dream analysis" techniques as I find these really vague and I find that if you try and interpret symbolism it doesn't necessarily help and in most cases just makes it more confusing. A lot of the dream interpretation websites even admit that the conclusions you come up with are probably correct because the dream relates to you specifically.
Anyway, someone else out there may have a better idea on these things since I don't proclaim to know anything about dream analysis and interpretation. I just thought it was interesting since it is the first nightmare I have had in a while.
My morning sickness continues to be a problem so I am soldiering on. I don't think I enjoy pregnancy...
|Kira Blogged at 10:33 am on Friday, February 01, 2008|